Category Archives: Drawings and paintings of beautiful women
Her electric blue eyes looking straight at me make the desire like a rush and I stay almost paralised by this strong emotion in front of her. She is watching me, I am watching her and I feel I fall in love.
Unfortunately she is just an image in a painting my friend Cristina has made last week. I helped her making the face to look more realistic and then Ițve seen in her the love I can only dream of, the love I am not allowed to have in my real life, the love that has a place only in my mind and in my art.When I painted her eyes and her smile full of meanings I started to imagine she is real and to fall in love with her. her eyes and her smile were also reminding me of a women I loved 2 years ago.I was standing in front of the painting and I started toching myself imagining she is in front of me, so close to me, holding me so tight and and the way she is looking in my eyes makes me feel loved and desired, then she is kissing me passionately, wildly.
This is my newest drawing of the young brunette girl I used to dream some years ago. I’ve made this drawing of her rising to the galaxy using ordinary ball point pens and I will make a new painting of her soon
I remember the time when I was 15 and while listening to Schiller – Dream of you I imagined the girl in my dreams standing on a mountain on the moon with the Earth behind her. By that time I had some dreams of a tall slim girl with long dark hair and white skin.
These are my older drawings and paintings of her the way i imagined her while listening to this song.
I’ve made almost 4000 drawings and paintings since the year 2000. Some are better, some are just simple fast sketches but I keep them all be cause for me these are more than just drawings, these are containing my feelings like the files of a diary .
Even if they are far from beeing masterpieces, my old drawings, the drawings I’ve made when I was 14, 15, 16 or 17, are special to me be cause the keep inside the feelings I had when I’ve made the, that strong desire to love and be loved, the image of the woman I’ve always wanted to have next to me, the love I could only dream of be cause I could never have.
Even if they are anatomically wrong and not aesthetic and artistic these drawings mean so much to me because in this drawings there is the woman I’ve always wanted to love. If she was real I would love her forever and she would mean everything to me. I’ve made these drawings when I was a lonely teenager. When I was in high school my art was all I had. I Had no one to talk to, no one to understand me, no one to love me and I’ve never had the courage to talk about my feelings because people would judge me. Here in Romania people are very intolerant and if the have to choose between a criminal, a schizophrenic or someone like me, they choose the criminal or the schizophrenic. Here in Romania people are influenced by the orthodox religion that teaches them to be misogyny and homophobic and by the years 2000, 2001, 2002 and 2003 the intolerance was bigger than now I was the girl who used to draw naked women and reject all the boys in high school and that’s why girls were avoiding me and boys were bulling me all the time. No one knew what was in my soul by that time.
If you lokk at this drawing you can realise ho much I wish I had this woman I always draw next to me, to love her and be loved by her and how much I suffered because I had to live alone hiding the pain inside.
This is a drawing I’ve made now starting from an older painting, a painting I’ve made by the year 2002 beeing inspired by the song Schiller – Dream of you and the dreams I had by the year 2001 when I used to dream about a young girl with white skin and long black hair, a girl I’ve never meet in my real life. The image below is the old painting. It is not amasterpiece but I keep it cause of it’s sentimental value. It remins me of the girl I used to dream when I was a teenager
I remember by that time the song made me imagine the girl in my dreams on a mountain on the moon singing with her beautiful voice, wearing jewels, with the Earth behind her. Music was inspiring me