This is one of my random pencil drawings. I’ve made it not watching the pencil and the paper and thinking about the love I cannot have, imagining I can feel her on top of me. She is touching me so deep and her touch takes me to another dimension of my mind. She turns me into a wave of the ocean, a volcano and a flame at the same time spinning my mind round and round, turning my world up side down and that’s why my image in this drawing is confusing and unclear. This drawing is about an emotion, a mixture of feelings and desire.
I’ve made this painting by the year 2002, when I was 16 and I used Photoshop to improve it. This is my painting of a girl like me, a painter who is painting the love she can only dream of. She is painting naked women but for her the nude is not about perversion and pornography, it’s about love, the love she cannot have. When she paints naked women she just wants to love and be loved, hold her love in her arms, kiss her, hold her hand, be next to her. She is so lonely in her world and is hard for her to talk about her feelings and all she wants is someone to love and understand her. I’ve made this painting hoping somewhere in the world there is some one like me, a girl who is drawing and painting the woman she is dreaming of be cause painting is all she can do, and one day I will meet her. This painting is about love, the pure ideal love
This is me, a spot of color in a colorless world, a rainbow in a black and white world, looking for another rainbow in this world
This is one of my dreams of love, me, the girl with golden hair and green eyes next to my love on a bed covered with red rose petals. I’ve made this acrylics on canvas painting imagining I am next to her, with my head on her shoulder, looking in her blue eyes, holding her strong arm. She is beautiful feminine but strong at the same time and I feel loved and safe next to her. I wish I could hold her in my arms, stay next to her, play in her long dark hair while she is kissing me. Unfortunately she is not real and I am still lonely watcing my own paintings and dreaming of the love I cannot have.
The painting has been removed from an art fair in Bucharest be cause the owner of that building, maybe the president of the Bucharest’s commerce room had considered it offensive to children and the fair’s organizer has asked me to put it down. The painting is new but the ideea is old, since the year 2004. You can see tha painting I did by that time below.